2008 was a watershed. I graduated from college, got a job, tried to balance having a career with being a wife, a mom and me and all that entails. Then I got fired from that job, felt worthless and miserable, then found another and got completely slammed with trying to balance everything again etc...
On the inside I was a complete train wreck for most of the year. Some good things fell by the wayside.
1. Exercise-I went from running 10 miles a week to walking to the mailbox.
2. Reading-I usually read 100 books per year. In 2008 I read 1/2 that, and all but 10 of those I had read previously. I re-read all those books to comfort myself and revisit old friends.
3. Crafting-I pieced a grand total of ONE quilt in 2008, only made candles when someone paid me to do it, and stitched only 3 Celtic knots. Also, every year I learn something new to do with my hands. Over the years this has covered everything from the crafts I just mentioned to learning to play the harp to learning to paint faux finishes on furniture and walls to learning to braid a rug, soapmaking etc... This year, I didn't learn any new creative things.
Some bad things were added to my life as well.
1.Insomnia-Unfortunately I have found the wee small hours of the morning to be the only time in a 24 hour period where I can have some much craved solitude.
2.Low self esteem. Between the job issues and the fact that I didn't do the things that made me happy, I often felt bluer than blue and sadder than sad.
3.OCD. My stress level has caused my OCD to get so bad that I am going to have to change my meds.
My resolution this year is to claim back what makes me happy, and banish what makes me unhappy.
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((HUGS)) :(
Claim & banish ~ that sounds like good advice, so I think I'll try it, too.
Happy New Year, Schwesterlein.
I love you as much as a brother can without being creepy.
Do what you can and forgive yourself your humanity.
Yeah, I know. I'm working on it, too.
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